I thought….

The amount of satisfaction, happiness, growth as a person and maturity are more and better in case of following my own dream then going for conventional, standard, practical way.

This practical way always works but I don’t get that kick. When I am living my dreams I feel the sense of living. There is a fear, there is a doubt, and there is a motivation, attempt, failure, endeavor, and a victory. Isn’t it fun? Everything I will get will be pure 100%. If my dreams are disaster I don’t have any one to blame at least. I am responsible for my own failure. If nothing works, I am a refined person. I am rhythmic now.
When I am dying I have the hard earned lessons to give it to the young ones.

And absolutely never understood this freaking being practical ….
By chance its working I am fine (still not so mature though) but if not…I will get the superficial happiness (In others word). I will cheat my own self and others too. Everything is fake. I myself don’t know who I am and what I want.
My self respect is at stake, where I believe the others then my own gut.I just jump in the well as others did; I keep myself from exploring new oceans.In case if I realize I am not happy, I die with the regret…at least I could have listened to myself.


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"The unreal is more powerful than the real, because nothing is as perfect as you can imagine it. Because its only intangible ideas, concepts, beliefs, fantasies that last. Stone crumbles. Wood rots. People, well, they die. But things as fragile as a thought, a dream, a legend, they can go on and on.” - Chuck Palahniuk