Blah…Blah…Blah.

‘N’ is intelligent and cute and affectionate….and so young (Naturally at my age my other single friends seem sOoOo young…hee hee). I am friends with ‘N’ from past 14 months. I was appointed as mentor to ‘N’ and the friendship strengthened …to amaze me.
I am so very touched with this friendship and innocent liking.
With the extreme gratefulness… I confess … It is Shangri-la !!!
Mmmmmuha to my all friends.
The freedom. The thankfulness for being accepted for whatever load of crap we are.

I met her some three weeks back. While talking to me she cited “This is a new part of my being so far, the situation made me realize my personality consists even this”.
I had a counter thought “I am the joint efforts of everyone - Disarranged - Stochastic - So little in me is original.”

This weird feeling is following me from past 25 years…Then I was 6-7, I wanted to be 16-17, then 26-27 quickly. I awaited the decade ahead, to see if any magic unfolds. However, it never happened though…I am still looking forward to it…
Now I wanna grow 36-37 and reach 46-47 then 56-57 instantly.
To check ..what actually happens after these many countless years to life?
I was in the cafeteria; I saw the printed photo of the 104 year old lady in the news paper.
There I was gazing my stick hands – and envisaged my skin being wrinkled like how the hair irrupts on Jack Nicolson in ‘Woolf’. My imagination continued, Like in the flashback movies, does the surrounding looks yellowish? Have people turned at me as if I have grown to an IT honcho?
NO. Not yet….Wait.
It remains unrevealed, difficult to decipher….Damn, What the hell is going on !?
I remember asking my parents, “Did the darkness have the same color when you guys were young”? They said “Yes”. Dingy Grey.
And I left thinking that the color of the darkness going to change….So, I have to stop getting scared of darkness.
Time tells everything, but I want time to tell me everything - Now, Right here – Right Now.
It’s very important to keep on living to see what happens at last !! :-)
My borrowed wisdom is not going to work. We have to sit and make our own mistakes to figure that out.
I am indeed impatient.

Close up:
"Philosophy is what losers use to pretend that losing doesn’t matter"
~Radhika Jha